Wisdom dawns ...

Wisdom often dawns upon us when there is nothing to lose. Things become good or bad only in retrospect. I read somewhere ... How do we come to know when we were truly happy? .... When we want to relive the experience, we should know that we experienced true bliss. Does this mean that we can never be happy and have the realisation that we are happy at the same time ???

Why I am writing all this nonsense (I am sure some people will agree with me when I call this nonsense) is because I have realised that it has been a long time since something happened that I wished to relive ... to experience again. Going by my theory ... is it true that I have not been truly happy since long? Or is it that the happiness that some of my past times gave me was so enormous ... that everything else fades in comparison??

As anyone close to my might have guessed, I am referring to my days at IIM Lucknow. They were the two best years of my life. And contrary to my own belief, I knew that ... at least in second year. On one of my late night walks with Manish, which i miss so badly now ... I remember telling him ...

"Now that term 4 has begun ... aisa lag raha hai naa .. ulti ginti shuru ho gayi hai ... the time is not far when we will be saying goodbye to this place and all the joys that it bought along. ... Lets try and make most of the time we have left here."

And we did that .. .. we did exactly that ... we had the time of our life there ... And if God asks me one wish today .... I would not think twice before saying out aloud ....
"I want to relive IIML days ..."

I miss sharing my feelings ...

About two years back ... I found a true friend, with whom I could share everything. By everything .. I mean everything. And it helped a lot .. it helped clear up my mind .. relieve my tension and of course some sound advice from him was always useful. Time flew by and our days of being together ended. And with it .. also ended my clarity of looking at things. If I describe my current situation, my mind is cluttered with hundreds of issues. And I fail to resolve even one of them. For the simple reason ... I cant share many things with everyone .. not even my family ... Makes me realise the importance my this friend ..

God bless you Manish Peter .. may you live a happy long life ... and be there always for me when i need you :-)

No more Ankita Mishra ...

I had told someone that I will not write about Ankita any more. After all she is no relative of mine and she is not going to give me a single paisa if she wins that 1 crore ka contract. But then .... i decided against myself. She deserves ... one last post. Coz no longer will we hear the name of Ankita Mishra on Indian Idol. But let me tell you one thing ... this girl is going to make it big one day.... and wherever you are and will be Ankita .. my good wishes will be with you.... May God bless you/